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We’re all too familiar with tears welling up in our eyes brought on by stress, sadness, or even laughter.

I’ve cried a river in these past few days; mainly brought on by sadness. 

I’m absolutely positive that my father is in a better place looking down from paradise onto his children and his beloved wife my mother and all whom he has had compassion for during his time here on this earth.

If there is anything that my father has taught me; it is to always be strong. 

Our family and friends have been blind sided by his departure.

However the support from family, friends, and even total strangers overwhelm’s me and my family with deep gratitude.

Before his untimely death I have made commitments to set out on a tour starting Oct 15th in the Mid-West pushing through towards the East Coast,

ultimately returning Oct. 31st which is my fathers birthday, which we still plan on celebrating his life.

Now I’ve only seen tears drop from my father’s face twice my whole life.

Once when he lost his mother my dearest Grandmother, and tears of happiness.

There was a point were my family showed little support for my music career.

That all changed when I invited my parents to my first record release party.

Tears filled his eyes running down his face rolling over the biggest smile when

he extended his hand to shake mine and i just gave him a huge hug.

As we embraced he told me how amazing I was up there and how proud he was of me. 

“They love you Son, you are so good. Whatever you do don’t stop”

One unforgetable moment with my father as we stood there as men.

I will re-live this moment with him every time I step off that stage. 

My father expects his family to live on and to stay strong, this is certain.

“If you’re going to try, go all the way. Otherwise, don’t even start. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives and maybe even your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery–isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it. And, you’ll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you’re going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It’s the only good fight there is.”

― Charles Bukowski